I don’t really know where to ask this.
I need to work on my self-esteem issues, a lot of which are caused by my home life. I’m “not logical”, clumsy, dumb, not smart, etc.
But they call me smart when it comes to my schoolwork as in, “You’re smart, you can do your work.” When I’m stressed.
My family wants me to be perfect and I’m just not.
They make jokes when I’m upset, and when I’m upset or try to tell them, I’m “too sensitive” and they go on about how insecure and how weak I am.
I broke up with my partner. They said I was too sensitive and insecure because I was upset about having to block the person. One of them laughed and said “You’re still upset?” When it happened 30 minutes before they said that.
Even my sister puts me down or calls me names sometimes to fit in.
There’s a pretty good chance that you aren’t any of those terrible things you think you are. I don’t know, maybe you are, but based on how much everyone seems to dismiss you and put you down, I’d bet you have a lot more going for you than you think.
I’m really sorry that this is how your family treats you. Learn from them all the things you’d never want to put your own family through, and don’t believe them when they put you down. Sounds like you don’t feel comfortable speaking up for yourself, which is fine. There’s nothing wrong with that in general, but that might be why they keep doing it.