I don’t really have any advice or anything, but I hope you can find some reason to keep going. It sucks feeling alone, even more so when you’re with other people.
Transitioning fucking sucks. Even if you have good results, it’s a mess to deal with, physically and socially, and those difficulties make it mentally taxing as well. Like a lot of social media, we tend to only see the really exceptional cases, and not the reality a lot of us will live with.
I wish I had something to say that could take your pain away, but I don’t. At some point, we all have to find a reason to keep going for ourselves. For me, it’s my cat. It’s nothing, in the grand scheme of things, but I’m all he has, and that’s enough to keep me going. At least for today.
Keep reaching out. Keep trying. In the end, that’s all we can really do.
Weird, that’s also the only thing my Politic Science degree has ever gotten me!