This is why I started therapy. While it gave me a lot of other insights and whatnot, this is the one thing therapy didn’t help with. This is the one thing I just try to keep buried, deep as fuck. Because I know, that the only way forward is acceptance. Acceptance of the fact, that there is no going back. There is only this or death. And I’m not ready to take on acceptance at this moment. I’m exhausted from all the therapy and health care efforts. I’m taking a break. I need to just live in the moment for a second. Going to a coffee shop later to drink a large cappuccino and eat a cinnamon bun and nothing else is going to matter.
This is why I started therapy. While it gave me a lot of other insights and whatnot, this is the one thing therapy didn’t help with. This is the one thing I just try to keep buried, deep as fuck. Because I know, that the only way forward is acceptance. Acceptance of the fact, that there is no going back. There is only this or death. And I’m not ready to take on acceptance at this moment. I’m exhausted from all the therapy and health care efforts. I’m taking a break. I need to just live in the moment for a second. Going to a coffee shop later to drink a large cappuccino and eat a cinnamon bun and nothing else is going to matter.