Being around people feels like I’m holding my breath. Anyone. Even the person I’ve been dating for over a decade. But I need so desperately to be alone so I can breathe.

When people mistreat their significant others it triggers something in me. I overcompensate, doting on my SO. I make dinner, bake treats, clean, take care of doggo, and work full time. I get from Friday night to noon on Saturday for myself, and those are the only hours of the week where I feel like I can relax.

I care about my partners. I only want the best for them, but I’m so tired.